Fun unplaned day!

This weekend we really didn't have anything planned besides the usual...laundry and clean house. Earlier in the week we were invited to attend the Maynard day parade and when Saturday came around, we decided to take up the Offer. Will's cousins, The Kelly's, grandpa was the grand Marshall this year so they would be attending the festivities. We didn't know what the day would bring but we were up for anything. The morning started with a 20 minute parade where Lyndin loaded up with candy. While waiting for the parade, Will and Travis decided we should venture to Edgewood to Rodeo days and take in a rodeo. Lyndin was all for that. So after the parade we went the the Maynard park for face painting and lunch before we headed to edgewood.

Since we were going to Edgewood we decided to pack a cooler so we could stop at the locker. So we picked up a cooler at his cousins house and we were off. We knew Edgewood had a parade at 2 but we also knew Lyndin needed a nap, which we were hoping so woild take while driving. Right! Our first stop was the locker where we loaded up on pork products. There we found out the rodeo didn't start until 8pm where we originally thought it started at 5. So we had 5 hours to kill. We watched some of the parade and then we headed off to try to find the Edgewood Amish. We were able to find a couple stores where we purchased a sweet wagon, some bulk candy and a lot of memories. At one store Lyndin saw a pony and worked her charm to get to see it. They even let her sit on it which she loved. I guarantee there will be a horse on V56 Farms soon enough .

Lyndin still hadn't napped and we were all getting hungry so we decided to head to Manchester for supper at Pizza ranch. After a quick stop at Wal-Mart and supper at Pizza ranch it was time to head to the rodeo. Let me tell you i was so nervous to take lyndin. Not only did she have a short nap I knew there would be tons of people and a late night. Will's other cousin and her friend met up with us at the rodeo. Edgewood is a town of 900 and they announced that there were 4700 people at the rodeo that night . Wow! We lucked out and got great seats right by the start gates. Lyndin loved the rodeo. She loves the horse and seeing the bulls. Will loves going and rewinding to his bull riding days. I think he still has the itch to bull ride but his body says otherwise. After a three hour rodeo and fireworks we were headed back north. What a fun unplanned day that turned out to be exactly what we needed. No judgement. No drama. Just a fun day. After the last month that we have had I hope we make time to enjoy more days like Saturday .

Reset

The last few weeks have been an emotional rollar coaster for me and my family. I was told by someone I considered family how terrible of a person I was and that her whole family hated me and that I don't have any friends and on and on. It hurt my heart to the core that I even considered taking my own life as I started to believe her. I Have always struggled with depression and anxiety and since having Lyndin it has gotten much worse. I have hit rock bottom before but this time felt much lower. I had never been hurt by someone I had so much respect for. My family had lost a support system and i lost all of my confidence i had as a wife, mother and person. I am constantly hearing the hurtful words she said to me over and over in my head and it hurts me more and more daily. This has been really hard on Will as he is busy working and leaving me alone can be unsettling to him. Not knowing how to help me or what i am thinking is scary for him. Probably more scary for him as it is for me. Today I looked at the calender and realized that it was memorial day and as much as I have going on in my life....i still have a life to fight for as so many people lost their lives to give me that right. So today I am deciding to start a new chapter in my journey of healing and moving on past this. I am going to look at this as a growing opportunity. The person that hurt me so much doesn't deserve to have me and my daughter in her life. Someone so hateful and hurtful has no place in my life. I wish her healing and closure as she now has to live with the actions she made. I will look back at my respect I had for her and make sure next time I hold someone to the level I held her that they deserve that respect.

For someone to degrade someone to the level that she degraded me is not only hurtful and harmful but it goes to show her true colors. I hope God can give her the guidance she needs to not be so mean to people that once looked up to her.

So here is to a new restart on life. Goodbye to the hatred and hello to the people that truly do have my back and deserve my respect.  I have chosen to block her on Facebook and delete most of her family as facebook friends in order to block my life from her. As hard as it was to hit delete on some of her family I knew it was the right thing to do. To the ones that remain  friends I hope you understand I never had any intention of hurting you or your family and i do value our friendship.

A pat on my back....

Calving season 2018 has started hot and heavy. We have about 10 cows in the maternity ward with all of them being cows that I AI'd. That is a pretty big deal for me. We decided in 2014 that I would take the AI course and start AI'ing to help save money. Well last year I had two AI calves stick but unfortunately one was born premature and didnt make it. If you look at past blog post, I shared that experience with you. Well this year I am 2 for 7 so far, with the remaining cows ready to go at any time. I am pretty excited with 2 as that for me is a big accomplishment.

Having the security cameras up and running has really helped alot. As we speak we are watching the new momma cow lick her calf clean from the comfort of our warm home. While we all went out to make she the birth was going okay, we don't have to spend hours in the cold keeping watch.

2 down.....70 to go!

2018

2018 started out with cold weather and a good freeze, but 2 days later we are flooded and antipicating ice. What a mess. We took advantage off a good Black Friday sale and added a security system to the calving barn which will hopefully allow us to keep a closer eye on the cows so inturn help the calves. It has been quite an improvment and already is allowing us peace of mind. I told Will tonight that I might have to pull the plug if he keeps waking me up asking....is that a calf? Needess to say, there is a learning curve to it all. 

We received 2.5 inches of RAIN today so Will spent the day creating trenches to keep the water flowing as the temperature is hoovering around 33 degrees. After the trouble we had with the ice last year we are extra caution to keep water flowing. Hopefully we can escape the predicted forcast of freezing and then snow. With the cold weather we had the first few weeks of January the frost is very deep so we might be pumping water out of the field to clear the pond! Mother nature is one powerful women.

This year we retired our herd bull V56 Jalnie. After keeping almost all of his heifer over the last few years it was time to say goodbye, so Will has been busy looking for a replacement. After looking through our records and our calving rates we are needing to eliminate some of the old cows and replace them with more productive heifers so Will is also looking for breds to buy. Never ending....

Well, Lyndin is ready for bed and  I need to finish lundry and go checks cows (in person as I keep reminding Will is something that still needs to be done) before I can get some sleep.