Why....is everything so hard.

When something brakes down or cattle get out or in tonight's case sheep. When late nights and early mornings get to us or we just don't have enough money to pay a bill I often wonder why we I still love the cattle. Will has always dreamed of having his own cattle herd and being his loving wife I want to do everything possible to keep that dream a reality, but some days when the bills pile up and money is going out more than coming in I often start to question it. Being a farmers wife is hard work, but add on being a full time employee and full time mother, being a farmers wife seems impossible. I often struggle with balance in my life as I want to help Will but also have 2 other major obligations to attend to and not only is he a full time farmer he is also a full time employee so our marriage easily gets lost.

My role at the farm has changed since having Lyndin. Before Lyndin I was right beside Will mending fence, sorting cattle and making sure everything is working. Now I take a back seat and manage the herd on paper and rely on Will and the help of neighbors and family to keep everything operational. We have both had to make changes in how we do things. Instead of me seeing the calves grow first hand, I see them grow through pictures and reports from Will and Will has had to learn to keep track of cows and calves on paper to report back to me what needs to be done. It has been an adjustment but we are both managing.

With a break in the heat on Sunday we as a family got to spend some time at the pastures. Being over there makes me realize that all the struggles are worth it. The calves look awesome and we are fortunate enough to own a lot of beautiful acres. The reason we endure all the struggles is so Lyndin and our future children can have a love for cattle like we do.